Lovely friends,
I’ve been thinking lately about how strange it is when you know something in your life has changed, but you don’t really know what you’re supposed to do with the space it left behind yet. I think we expect ourselves to move from one chapter directly into the next one with some kind of clear plan, especially if we’ve spent months wanting things to change. Then the change finally happens, the dust starts settling, and you look around and think, okay… now what? I’ve been having more of those moments lately, and I’m realizing I don’t necessarily need to answer that question as quickly as I normally would.
I am someone who likes movement, ideas, projects, plans, lists, and knowing where I’m going. I can take one little idea and have an entire business built around it in my head before lunch, which is both a gift and occasionally a problem. 😂 I like feeling excited about what comes next, and I really like knowing there IS a next. Sitting in a place where I’m still figuring that out can feel very strange to me.
But I think there is something important happening in that space, and I’ve been trying to pay attention to it instead of immediately filling it. I’m noticing what I’m interested in now, what I keep coming back to, what I suddenly want to learn about, and what I really don’t care about anymore. Some of those changes surprise me because they aren’t things I consciously decided. I just notice that my energy goes somewhere different now.
That has made me think about how often we decide who we are and then spend years trying to remain consistent with that person. We build a life, a career, a business, relationships, routines, and responsibilities around choices we made at another point in our lives. Some of those things grow right along with us, and some eventually start feeling like clothes that technically still fit but you never want to wear anymore. There doesn’t always have to be something wrong with them for us to realize we’re ready for something different.
I’ve certainly been feeling that around work and creativity. Technology is changing so fast, the way people find information is changing, YouTube is changing, social media changes every five minutes, and AI has completely changed what is possible in a ridiculously short amount of time. I can look at all of that and get excited because there are so many things we can do now, and I can also look at it and think, good Lord, can everybody stop inventing things for five minutes so I can catch up? Both thoughts can apparently live quite happily in my head at the same time.
It has made me question what I actually want the next part of my work to look like. There are things I have done for years that I still love, things I want to grow differently, and completely new things that catch my attention. I don’t have one perfect answer yet, and I’m starting to think that may actually be a good thing. If I decided too quickly what the next version of my life had to look like, I might build it around the person I was instead of giving myself enough room to discover who I am becoming.
That sentence has really stayed with me.
Who am I becoming?
I don’t mean that in some giant spiritual identity way where I need to go sit on a mountain and discover the meaning of my existence. I mean it in normal life. What do I enjoy now? What am I curious about? What am I willing to spend my time doing? What do I want more of when I wake up in the morning?
Those questions feel more useful to me right now than asking what my entire future is supposed to look like. I can answer some of them without knowing where they eventually lead. I can follow something because I’m interested in it and see what happens. I can learn something simply because I want to know how it works, and I can try something without immediately deciding whether it needs to become part of my identity or my business.
I think adults forget we’re allowed to do that.
We’re allowed to experiment.
We’re allowed to be beginners again, and I actually think being a beginner is incredibly good for intuition because you don’t have all the answers stored in your head yet. You have to pay attention to how something feels while you’re experiencing it. You notice whether you’re excited to come back to it, whether ideas start flowing around it, and whether you feel more like yourself while you’re doing it.
That is information.
I’ve always believed Spirit works through our interests much more than people realize. We tend to look for guidance in signs, dreams, meditation, cards, synchronicities, or those strong intuitive moments when something suddenly clicks. I use all of those things too. But I also think Spirit works through curiosity, and that one gets overlooked all the time.
When something keeps catching my attention, I pay attention back.
Maybe I hear about something three times in a week. Maybe somebody mentions an idea and I’m still thinking about it two days later. Maybe I find myself researching something when nobody told me to research it and I have absolutely no practical reason to be sitting there reading about it at eleven o’clock at night. That little spark of interest matters to me because I know how my intuition works, and sometimes curiosity is the first breadcrumb.
It doesn’t mean every breadcrumb leads to a giant life purpose. Thank God, because I have been curious about some extremely random things in my lifetime. I think the point is allowing ourselves to follow what has energy around it without demanding that Spirit immediately explain why. Sometimes the reason becomes obvious later.
I’ve had that happen so many times in my life where something I learned, experienced, or became interested in seemed completely separate from everything else I was doing. Years later, suddenly there was a place for it. I couldn’t have planned the connection because I didn’t even know the second piece existed when I picked up the first one. Looking backward, though, I could see the trail.
That is one of the reasons I believe so strongly in working with Spirit as a relationship instead of constantly asking for predictions. I don’t need my spiritual team to hand me a printed itinerary for the next ten years. I want the little nudges that help me participate in creating those years. I want to recognize the conversation, the idea, the opportunity, or the sudden interest that might be pointing me somewhere worth exploring.
And this is where Archangel Michael has been coming into my thoughts around all of this.
Most people know Michael for protection, and of course I work with him that way too, but I have always felt there is so much more to his energy. Michael helps us with courage, boundaries, moving forward, clearing what we are carrying, and separating our own truth from all the fear and opinions around us. That becomes incredibly useful when you are changing because change has a funny way of waking up every insecurity you thought you had already dealt with.
You can be excited about an idea and five minutes later your brain starts telling you all the reasons it won’t work. You can feel called toward something and immediately start wondering what everyone else will think. You can want to try something completely different and hear that little voice asking whether you’re too old, too late, too inexperienced, too busy, or just being ridiculous. Sometimes we kill our own curiosity before it ever gets a chance to show us anything.
I’ve been working with Michael around that very simply. I ask him to help me clear fear around whatever I am considering and help me recognize what is actually mine. I want to know whether something genuinely feels wrong for me or whether I’m simply uncomfortable because it is unfamiliar. Those can feel very similar when you’re standing at the beginning of something.
I think this is also where self-confidence gets misunderstood. Confidence doesn’t always look like walking into something knowing exactly what you’re doing. Sometimes it is being willing to look like a beginner. Sometimes it is saying, “I don’t know yet, but I want to find out,” and trusting yourself enough to take the next step anyway.
I actually think that takes more confidence than pretending you have everything figured out.
There is freedom in giving yourself permission to find out who you are now. Maybe something you wanted five years ago isn’t important anymore. Maybe something you never imagined wanting suddenly sounds wonderful. Maybe the way you used to define success has changed because your life has changed, and you have changed right along with it.
We don’t talk about that enough.
There is so much pressure to pick a path and stay on it because changing direction can somehow look like we got the first choice wrong. I don’t see it that way at all. I think sometimes a path gives you exactly what you came there to learn, experience, build, or become, and eventually you reach the part where you can use all of that somewhere else. Nothing was wasted just because you don’t want to keep doing it forever.
That thought has been freeing for me lately because I have been through a huge life transition this year. There are pieces of my life that required so much of my attention for months, and now I’m finding my way back into my own routines, work, creativity, and plans. I’m discovering that I don’t necessarily want to return to everything exactly as it was before. I have new experiences inside me now, and of course those experiences are going to affect what I want next.
I think we sometimes say we want a fresh start while secretly expecting ourselves to rebuild the exact same life. That doesn’t make much sense when I really think about it. If something changed me, then whatever I build from here gets to reflect that change. I’m allowed to discover what fits the person standing here now.
That has also made me more aware of how quickly I can ask other people what they think before I’ve even asked myself. We all do this. We have an idea and immediately start gathering opinions, researching what everyone else is doing, looking at numbers, comparing ourselves, and trying to figure out whether the idea has been officially approved by the universe and the internet. By the time we’re finished, we can barely remember how we felt about it in the first place.
I’ve been trying to give my own knowing a little more room before I invite everybody else into the meeting.
What do I think?
Do I like this?
Does this interest me?
Would I still want to explore it if nobody was watching?
Those are such simple questions, but they tell me a lot.
I also think there is a difference between building something because you think you should and building something because there is life in it for you. I can feel that difference in my body. One feels like another responsibility I have assigned myself, and the other has this pull where I keep wanting to come back and play with it. I’m paying much more attention to that pull now.
That doesn’t mean everything we love becomes easy or profitable or magically falls into place. Real life still has bills, responsibilities, learning curves, mistakes, and things that need to make practical sense. I’m very grounded about that. But practicality and intuition can work together, and I think some of the best decisions happen when we let them.
Spirit can show me the door, and I still have to look at what walking through it actually requires.
Michael can help me find the courage, and I still have to take the step.
My intuition can tell me something has energy around it, and I can research it, test it, learn about it, and see whether it works in my actual life.
That is how I like to work spiritually because I don’t want to hand my choices over to anyone, including Spirit. I want support while I make them. I want guidance that strengthens my own knowing instead of replacing it.
And maybe that is part of who I’m becoming too.
Someone who doesn’t need to know the ending before she starts.
That is a big one for me because I love knowing where things are going. I love a plan, I love a list, and we already established last week that I get a ridiculous amount of satisfaction from a check mark. 😂 But life doesn’t always give us a checklist for the parts that matter most.
Sometimes all we get is interest.
Sometimes we get an idea.
Sometimes somebody says something that stays with us.
Sometimes we wake up and realize we don’t want what we used to want anymore.
And sometimes that is enough information for now.
If you’re in one of those places too, where you can feel something changing but you can’t quite name the new version yet, I think there is value in giving yourself some room. Pay attention to what keeps getting your attention. Notice what gives you energy, what you want to learn, what conversations make you light up, and what you find yourself imagining when nobody is asking you to be practical for five minutes.
You can ask Michael to walk with you there too. I would keep it incredibly simple and say, “Archangel Michael, help me release the fear of what comes next and give me the courage to explore what feels right for me.” Then live your life and pay attention.
I wouldn’t sit there waiting for a booming voice from the heavens because Michael has never needed to be that complicated for me. I might suddenly feel ready to make a call I have been avoiding. I might come across information that answers something I was wondering about, or I might have a conversation that makes me look at an idea differently. The guidance often becomes obvious because I am paying attention to my life instead of waiting for something magical to interrupt it.
And if I try something and decide I don’t like it, I learned something.
That counts too.
We put so much pressure on ourselves to make the “right” choice that we forget how many right choices are discovered by making a choice and seeing what happens. We can adjust. We can change our minds. We can learn something and take that information into the next decision.
There is no rule saying the person I am becoming has to arrive fully formed.
She gets to unfold.
I think that is where I am right now. I’m looking forward again, I’m curious about things again, and I’m allowing some ideas to exist without immediately deciding what they have to become. I am listening to myself differently because the woman making these choices has lived through things the woman from a year ago hadn’t experienced yet.
Of course she is going to want some different things.
And I kind of like that.
There is something exciting about realizing your future still has the ability to surprise you. There are people you haven’t met yet, things you haven’t learned yet, ideas you haven’t had yet, and versions of your life you couldn’t possibly plan because you don’t have all the pieces yet. I don’t need to rush ahead and fill in every blank.
For now, I can follow what feels alive.
I can ask Spirit to guide me.
I can ask Michael to help me have the courage to explore it.
And I can trust myself enough to find out where it goes.
Maybe we don’t always need to know who we’re becoming yet.
Maybe getting to know her is part of the fun.
Much love,
Lisa 💜
